The memories of all that I did
Crawling in pits
For the stark realization that my heart is in a ditch
Part of me is sick
Begging for the cruelty
Slicing at my wrist like a violin to sooth me
The violence in movies
Silence speaks louder than words do
If you understand the languish/language
Tell me that it's okay
to hurt you and I'll do it, Tell me that you love me and I'll move the Earth
Whatever you choose, my view is scourged
You decided to guide me through the dirt but you lost me
and I'm truly hurt.
This isn't what I wanted. Not once, Not a little
always feeling like I'm haunted
Chiseling a rock big enough to exhaust Sisyphus; it's enough
to stop anybody from loving me. and I've given up.
Throw my soul to the ghouls.
and I hope that they use everything in it to pour out a venom
Strong enough to evaporate the whole globe
at a faster rate until there's no hope.
You can feel me in your veins and I know it's true
I don't want to but I'll open you to prove it. I'm A

LONE WOLF; COLD FEET
Body filled with malice
STILL MAN,
TIN CAN heart lacking promise
I'm a zephyr
that morphs to a typhoon whenever
separate together
A storm; I'm bad weather

Teetering mind snaps.
Jumping past the borderline
I won't pass forty five.
Torrid mind, pouring blood over the cold sheets that I despise.
Hopefully my body dies before I force demise.
Worthless letters on a piece of shit paper
Contemplating murder just to plead the fifth later
ridiculous sycophant, beligerent iconoclast
I embody both extremes.
Extremeist slash psychopath; mentally unstable but I just laugh
because you're watching me
as if I'm property
As if I got to be the tight-rope walker
while I'm haunted in my dreams even when I don't want her.
I'm wading in cold water; waiting to drown.
Take me pull me inside;
by a rope chained to the ground
Without making a sound
Until I'm punching at nothing but black
Until the lungs in my chest struggle and crack.. I'm a

LONE WOLF; COLD FEET
Body filled with malice
STILL MAN,
TIN CAN heart lacking promise
I'm a zephyr
that morphs to a typhoon whenever
Separate together;
A storm; I'm bad weather