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lyrics
I guess I feel it again...
All the demons that will breed in my skin
Keeping me inside.. a feverish hate that never subsides
Kept within an abyss where only love dies
realizing that I combined hate with other emotions I haven't analyzed
Come find...
Me... inside the bottom of my trust
if you're searching for my heart then you will find lust..
but, there is no trail, and no entrance to recognize
I covered the path when I burned myself alive
I'd rather drown inside your tears
Than tell you that I love you, as you abandon me in fear
Panicking, it's back again, anxiety is killing me
Stabbed, like I'm attacked by a colony of killer bees
Asthma attack, when it's about to be the time
that I open the chambers and I let your love inside
There is writing on the walls
That explain what I'm feeling you try to find it all
You will see black letters that spell HELP, and SAVE ME
Unscramble, erase, and the only thing that's left is... PLEASE
I'm begging you to figure me out
I only have a figure of speech, I never had a money amount
Stuck in a route, that I don't want to take
when I isolate, finding a way, to hide pain
I relate, to the psychos, deranged, yet I'm tamed
but imagine what would happen when I auto-pilot my brain
And follow the path that you made..
I want murder all that I am to lose hate
Music is a drug and I'm addicted to the remedy
But in pursuit of happiness I made a lot of enemies
and I'm about to detonate, I'm carrying a heavy weight
that I don't wanna lift, so I'm using liquor to medicate
Prechorus:
PIcked locks and I know that I'm sufferin'
where did I go wrong, I'm still wonderin'
Worn keys can't open these doors.
Old friends disappear when the light is gone
Where is everybody now when i fight the storm?
I made these walls on my own
'Cause I was bound to explode
Chorus:
Abandon every feeling
Vanish my emotion
You will always be a target
if you're standing in the open
'Cause I was bound to explode
See the reason
That I'm begging for the end of it
I smashed every bottle
and I ran out of my medicine x2
I guess I feel it again...
The cold sharp feeling of the steel on my skin
When I bleed I feel things, but is it really feeling?
Or is it me concealing a reason that I want to kill me?
Am I suicidal if I want to end my
suffering, or is it preservation? I don't get by
Reservating any of my inside voices
But when I scream I need my inside voice, its
what my mother told me, so I keep it quiet
and I never cry tears, 'cause I never think about it
but isn't it ironic, a schizophrenic telling you he doesn't have a voice?
I never had a choice
These people pushed against me, told me I was sick
Gave me many pills that were never made to fix
Painted me as sadist when I laughed at people hurting
but I used it as defense, they abused everything, even mercy
molded me into this steel plated, soldier that feels hatred
and never conceals rage,
yes, I feel pain, Yes, I'm a human being
but I turned into this mutant 'cause you never intervened
Nobody showed empathy, I always show empathy
That's why I never have any energy for mending me
and I'm about to detonate, carrying a heavy weight
that I don't wanna lift, so I'm using liquor to medicate
Prechorus:
PIcked locks and I know that I'm sufferin'
where did I go wrong, I'm still wonderin'
Worn keys can't open these doors.
Old friends disappear when the light is gone
Where is everybody now when i fight the storm?
I made these walls on my own
'Cause I was bound to explode
Chorus:
Abandon every feeling
Vanish my emotion
You will always be a target
if you're standing in the open
'Cause I was bound to explode
See the reason
That I'm begging for the end of it
I smashed every bottle
and I ran out of my medicine x2
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